Try Hard

What a difference a week can make eh? I’ve gone from feeling disappointed that Tone didn’t seem to have changed, and feeling foolish for believing things could be good again to being a little freaked out by him!
After the drama (well, non drama really) of our meal, he obviously realised he’d been a bit of a dickhead and sat up and took note of the fact that I wasn’t interested anymore. And because of that, Tone has taken things to a whole new level. It’s a little bit cringey, but then I can’t deny that I like the attention. Find me a girl who wouldn’t love a bunch of rainbow tulips in their work locker?! I’m still having doubts about our potential as a couple. At the end of the day he has a bit of a problem when he’s snorting the white stuff, and his love for the white stuff has pretty much always outweighed his love for me. Well, I think it has.
So I’m trying to take the new level of attention with a pinch of salt, but at the same time, I may as well enjoy it right? I’m actually earning a bit more from his mood swing at the moment because I’ve been on Window 1 EVERY NIGHT since we went out for dinner. It’s still the same pay rate, but the tips are always better because Window 1 mostly gets more customers. You see the customers know that ‘the best’ girls are usually in Window 1. I did tease Tone a little bit by buying a new wig that he’d always said I should get. (A bit like that candy wig that Scarlett Johanson (sp?) wears in Lost in Translation) I hope he doesn’t take that the wrong way actually. I might not wear it every night.
I guess I feel as though I’m in limbo a little bit at the moment, but whilst there’s no one else on the scene, and Tone isn’t being pervy or too annoying, I may as well lap up the attention right?